What's up there?

I remember when I was less than ten years old. I never really looked at the moon to consider what was behind it's beauty and what adds a great deal to its significance. A child that looks up in the sky, not just at the moon, but into it, with those beautiful eyes filled with wonder of how the lady up and inside just remains whispering words of hope, love and acceptance that somehow makes him feel lighter and a little bit happier.
That little child is in all of us. Sometimes we just lose focus, lose track of time that we want time itself to stop randomly and wait for a while till we are ready to live again. 
I bet you do not know what it actually means to look into the moon. To stare into it for more than 10 seconds and slowly drift. There is a lot of  peace waiting to soothe. People never really pay attention to things. They just walk by without noticing the very little things that are so important. The spirit in us that hungers for something different desperately. 
You say you are not desperate. Your mind isn't, but every time you're alone, your heart is.
No one has all the answers to your questions as this life is simply random. God first, family, and everything else that follows. With those directions in mind, listen closely to the silence and pay attention to the little things in your life and around you, because they matter the most.