Silence

What do you want to hear? That I love you and miss you a lot? That the little time we had was never enough to evoke these feelings but somehow it managed to?.. that I wish you would stop and be completely honest with me?

How would it be to you when I am all that and you tire of me. You then have me wondering what it is I did wrong and why things changed between us. You make me feel that far behind because that is where you find it right to put me.

I am hanging onto a moment of your truth. The complete sincerity, honesty, clarity you give to me with heartfelt charity. You do not understand me, but in the beginning your words were all about getting to know me better. Was it me or was it the want for something more.

The desire came so clear that it pushed me off balance because I could not see. Did not see that other side of you because you hid so well behind your words and pretence. Somehow I fall for it all over again because in one moment , just one, I remember the laughs and peace we shared and I change the facts with my heart and mind that you actually may be real for that one moment then maybe for eternity. But then again reality covers me with darkness when it repeats its ways.

The desire to be happy with the one you think about at night before you sleep and wake up wondering if all is good with that one could not be a bad thing, could it? The tears of rejection turned the white sheets to brown because the reason for the tears just could not come clean.

Say something yourself and stop leaving me dumb because I do not know what is.